So who am I? A voice on the internet, someone who enjoys speaking and sharing my insights. Most of what I share comes from my direct experience. I’ve learnt from many teachers and mentors yet the biggest teacher remains life itself and the quiet voice within.
I’ve had my fair share of suffering and I still find life challenging as a neurodivergent person. But this also has taught me a lot and given me the gifts of depth and compassion.
All my life I have been looking for the end of suffering. Worked through many modalities, tried so many things. Standard routes and alternative routes. Plant medicine... I pushed hard and perhaps that was one of the biggest pitfalls. To try to hard and force it too much, and overwhelm myself with more than what I was ready for.
But I really wanted a way out of chronic illness, complex trauma, depression, anxiety…
Then I found out I am autistic as an adult. I have a very sensitive nervous system, but it can be difficult to navigate the world. I have a desire for authenticity, depth, realness. No smalltalk, but REALtalk. Drop the mask. I can see patterns, energies. I also get overwhelmed by tasks of daily life. It is an interesting mix for sure, this neurodivergent brain!
I’ve had dreams and goals when I was younger and I reached many of them. I won several awards. I had a promising career as a musician. I recorded two studio albums. Went to Hawaii. I moved to New Zealand and lived in a beautiful house on the sea with my husband and a cat. Living the dream on the outside, but still suffering on the inside.
A few years later, I lost everything and had to move again. It was a rough place to be and life took a lot from me over and over again.
As the outer was either unfulfilling or just crumbling, the path lead me towards non-duality. The world of form is impermanent. But there is something unchanging. The peace beyond understanding. You are what you are looking for. Presence, awareness. The ground of being. That is what clicked. This is it.
It isn’t always easy to return to that always and embody that when suffering is loud, but that is the way and what I am exploring these days:
How to navigate trauma and non-duality.
Being in a body that isn't always a safe place to be in.
Feeling a lot.
Embracing this human experience with all emotions and sensations and yet remembering what always stays the same underneath the waves of phenomena that are transient like the weather.
So for me, transcendence is not where it ends. It is about coming back to the body and including this life here on earth. Spirituality that only transcends and denies the body and our humanity doesn't interest me anymore.
I am not someone who knows it all. I might have insights one moment and two weeks later have a new perspective.
I'm not a guru. I’m an ordinary person, letting the light of awareness / presence shine through and speak through me.
I still have stuff to work through. I still enjoy speaking and sharing what wants to come through me.
So what do I have to offer?
My experience. Presence.
And I am committed to deepening into that, and perhaps some of those sharings have meaning for other people as well who are having similar challenging. So may I be an inspiration and a guide home to your own inner wisdom and guidance. Because in the end, all ways lead back to you, the wisdom and power of your own being.
One of my favorite things is recording videos and speaking on Youtube. Find me there: